I love my life, there's just no other way to put it. I know I complain about things but in the end everything works itself out. Everything happens for a reason, right?

Last night I met up with Justin at Y-Bar. I had a lot of fun. There was nobody there but it was $2.50 wells so of course I had to take full advantage - hell yeah doubles! We played pool and he taught me how to play darts. I must mention that I kicked his ass my first time ever playing. We both live within walking distance of the bar so we walked back to his place. Justin's got his own dart board so we played again and of course I won because I'm amazing. I like him and I definitely wouldn't mind hanging out with him again. Hopefully Friday night something can be arranged. He's different than I expected him to be, which is good for him. I didn't end up falling asleep until around 4am and I had to be up at 9am to finish my paper for my SWRK class, which I'm skipping because I feel like crap.

Anyways, I'm excited to head back into town in 10 days. I think I've only been back once since classes started up. David's concert will be fun and of course going out after will be even better.

~LAter

That was seriously one of the best weekends I've had in a very long time. I didn't think it'd be that much fun considering I was just in town to relax before classes started back up. Definite highlight of the weekend: MOZ. I was a little nervous when Dave asked to go but I sucked it up and went. Had a blast!! I was even happier when we went Saturday night and Nikki joined us :) I danced with Michael - best bartender ever and I got Dave out there for a song or two. I want to make that a must each time I go home now lol. Unfortunately the night had to end early both nights due to people in Kalamazoo, but thats a different story.

Sunday was relaxing. I laid by the pool for most of the day with my iPod and napped occasionally. I just got back into Kalamazoo about an hour ago. Traffic was awful. People pulling huge boats/campers should not be allowed on the road. I almost got sideswiped twice by peole hauling huge boats. I was not pleased.

Anyway... great weekend and hopefully that'll start off the school year right.

~LAter

Katie & I took Mila for a 5 mile hike yesterday. It was amazing. We did the stairs over on East Campus and I nearly died. I'm definitely feeling it today in my thighs and calves. It's a good workout though. I'm really trying to get back into shape because I'm tired of being this overweight. I'm closing tonight and opening tomorrow - I love having 7 hours (literally) between shifts, but I guess I can't complain because I did it to myself. Eric's supposed to come down Friday so we can go bar hopping with Katie and (possibly) the girls. I'll be in town on July 3-7 so we should definitely get together and do something. I know I'm always up for something.

For the most part things are good. E & I are friends and thats the way it should be. We still talk on a daily basis and hang out when we have free time, which is pretty much the same as it was. We just need to start over and start seeing other people. It may be easier said than done, but that's the plan. Let me know if you want to try and plan something during the first week in July.

~LAter

Engagement over. That is all.

It's an absolutely gorgeous day and I want to go back outside. Katie & I took Mila for an hour long walk and she loved it. She's so funny - she walks on the grass but then when it comes time to cross a driveway she'll stop and inspect every inch of it before she decides it's safe to cross. Some people pulled up beside us and were like we just got a pug a few days ago can we have them meet. Random but their puppy was cute. It was only 9 wks old and it's name was Rocko. They drove all the way to Whitehall to get it which seems crazy to me, but oh well. I can't believe Mila was that tiny when I first got her, now she's at least doubled in size.

I've decided that having a set schedule at work seems great in theory but when it actually comes down to it I hate it. Maggie got all opening shifts (naturally because she made the schedule) and I have all closes and Nicole got the leftovers. I guess I would have liked to have had just one open or a mid - eh. I think the newness of it is starting to wear off and I'm rediscovering my hatred of cashiering. It's not bad when it's busy but lately it's been so slow and the people I'm up there with do not entertain me. Oh well, it's a job with a nice paycheck at the end of the week. I think I have Memorial Day off though so maybe i'll hop back into town Sunday night and stay Monday. I miss the beach and I want Mila to be down there as much as possible. Maybe I'll see if I can switch a shift with someone, who knows.

~LAter

I am officially done with this semester... yay!! I should have A's & B's so thats always nice. I can't believe I've finished 3 years of college; unfortunately I still have 2 more to go :( Thats what I get for not picking a major until now but oh well.

I have to come home for a bit on Saturday to pick Mila up. Eric's had her all week so she wouldn't distract me, and the roomies, during finals week, which was nice but I missed her a ton. He gave her a bath and I guess she wasn't fond of it. I'm sad I missed that.

Surprisingly, the head cashier position isn't that bad. My week of training went well, when I was with Nicole. I'm only on actual register for around 4-5 hours and the rest of the time is spent running around doing pickups, getting change, and counting drawers down. I finally balanced the safe last night, I was so proud of myself. It was the first night on my own that I did it and it came out right. They were doing inventory last night and that sucked for them. I felt bad for Melissa because she came in at 5 and was supposed to leave at midnight but she ended up having to stay until 3:30am; I would have been pissed. I guess thats better than the alternative, she was supposed to open today which would have also sucked but she got it off for staying late. I got yelled at for going over my 40 hours by .15... c'mon, honestly. Who cares, it's 2 dollars. Sometimes I just have to laugh at the pettiness that goes around. Hmmm... not much else to say. Oh, I'll be in town May 4-5 so we'll have to try and meet up or something.

~LAter

Oh its everyone's favorite time of the year... Finals. Luckily I only have one I actually have to go to. Sociology and Social Work only require turning in take home portions which are incredible easy, so I don't consider them finals. Social Work 300 is one of the scheduled online tests which I don't consider a final either. I can't wait for this week to be over; the last week of regular class.

So far Mila has adjusted well to her new home. She's finally sleeping in her kennel at night without whining or biting the door, which means I get a decent night's sleep too. Chris & Jordan like her a lot and surprisingly, Jennifer has bonded a little with her. Eric is taking her next week during our finals so we won't have to worry about her. It works out for me because I'll be working a ton and feel bad about leaving her with the roommates. I'll have her in town the first Friday and Saturday of May so if you would like to meet her let me know.

~LAter

***EDIT***

I accepted the position tonight. I start training tomorrow; my life as I know it is over - in good way though.


Just got offered one of the head cashier positions at work. Guaranteed hours and a pay raise? I think I'm actually considering doing this.

I got a new tattoo!! Check my myspace for pics, they will be coming soon!

I've forgotten how much I enjoy long walks at night when it's just the right temperature. Tonight two of my roommates and I went for an hour and a half walk around campus and through the student ghetto and back through old campus. Katie made me run the stairs on old campus and I almost killed her. I love walks with friends and being able to be me. I miss being able to wear running shorts and tank tops and being able to show off my tattoo. Now that the 70+ degree weather is here I can do that again. This summer the only thing I'll miss is not being able to go to the lake whenever I please; that is the only downside of Kalamazoo. When we got back Jordan was just leaving his apartment and we rode in his camaro. Seriously, why does a 22 year old have a tricked out camaro and a blazer?? Anyway, the camaro was amazing the blazer not so much lol. Things are starting to look up. I'm going to be busy as hell from now until the end of the semester but it's so worth it.

~LAter

Spring break was fun. The drive to Colorado was boring as hell but once we got past Denver the scenery was amazing. Driving through the mountains was not fun; there were points when I didn't think my car as going to make it. I only skied one day because my lungs hurt. The elevation up there took a toll on my body. I felt like I weighed about 400 lbs because I couldn't walk down a road without stopping every hundred feet for air. I know I'm not that out of shape. Breckenridge was beautiful but worse on my lungs. I didn't ski there. I found a coffee shop and sat down with my book for a few hours while Eric skied.

And I would like to apologize for not being able to make drinks on either Saturday night. I just had to get out of Muskegon and away from my parents; they were driving me absolutely nuts. I promise next time I'm in town... if anyone's up for it then.

~LAter

I'm coming back into town Friday afternoon and leaving around 5:30am Saturday. Would anyone want to meet up Friday night for drinks?? I really want to see eveyone but since I'll only be home for about 12 hours it makes it a little bit harder. Let me know!

Instead of folding laundry and doing mass amounts of homework that seem to have accumulated over the past 10 hours, I am writing in this. Things are good; trying to keep everything in the positive perspective. Eric and I are going to Keystone/Breckenridge, CO for Spring Break. He found a really good deal online so we obviously couldn't say no. Two days of skiing and a few days of lounging/shopping... I'm okay with that. I will fall down the mountain that takes an hour to ski down; I'm well aware of that but it'll be okay.

Tonight at work I learned that we are no longer recovering our sections at night. We are only doing what re-shelves there are and then the morning crew will recover the sections if they're bad. This is stupid. New books will not be shelved during that time because too much of it will be alotted to straightening sections.

We had an incident tonight. Aparently this old fat bald guy likes to come in and watch the little girls... like the 10 year olds. He sits in the kids section and waits, then he follows them around the store. The police have been called before and we thought he'd been kicked out of the store, but no. He was in tonight probably planning on eye-f*cking some tween girl but that didn't happen. He saw us all staring/pointing at him; got up and left. Surprisingly he wasn't looking at Britney or Paris... but a gun mag. Whatev... at least he wasn't there long and no one was eye-molested. Okay... time to finish laundry and homework.

~LAter

I did it... I bought a new car. It's a 2003 Saturn L200. It has alloy wheels, a sunroof, heated leather seats, power everything and an awesome sound system. It's got really low miles for the year and I am happy with it.

As usual my parents aren't happy because I didn't get the "practical" car. But my thoughts on that are... I don't go out to the bars, I don't go on shopping sprees, basically I don't splurge on anything. If I'm going to spend a lot of my hard earned money, then I'm going to do it on something I'm going to use, like a car.

Oh well, I love it and it will be better than the last one.

So far I've had all but one of my classes; that one is today at 4:00. I think I'm really going to like my Social Work 2100 class. It's in the new College of Health & Human Services building and it's very modern. We don't have desks or tables, we have nice plush chairs that I could fall asleep in. It's stadium seating and the professor is awesome. He looks like he's 60 and has crazy gray hair that flies in every direction when he talks. I like him; my sociology professor on the other hand is an ass. I see he and I disagreeing on a lot of issues, but thats what makes it interesting I guess.

I'm moving into the apartment in a few weeks, I'm super excited! I finally get to live with Katie and Amanda. My rent isn't nearly as expensive as theirs, which I'm okay with. My leaes goes through August; that's good for staying down here for the summer.

I'm coming home tomorrow after work. I need to buy a new car within the next few weeks. The Intrigue won't make it to Kalamazoo without overheating so I need to get rid of it in Muskegon, quickly. This weekend will be dedicated to finding a new car and next weekend will be purchasing sed car. Sigh... so much to do, definitely not enough time.

~LAter

When I think of the new year I always think of new beginnings. It's a time to start over and try to mend differences with people. I've decided today that I'm going to try to do that with a few people who have hurt me terribly in the past. I don't know why, I guess I'm just in a giving mood today.

I had lunch with my cousin today. She's doing really well; I hadn't seen her in over a year and it was nice to catch up with her. She said my aunt (whom I haven't seen or spoken to in a few years) was doing well. Her surgery went fine, but she's confined to a wheel chair for a while. I think I should call her tomorrow... try to mend things a bit with her. I think this is a big step considering that after my dad died she didn't try to contact me for five years, and her excuse was that "she was giving me space to start a new life." I was nine years old... who does that?? Anyway, we've tried this before and it always ends the same... I get hurt and she doesn't change. I don't know why I bother doing this again; I guess I hope maybe it will be different. Maybe I'm tired of being bitter towards her - yup that's it.

In other news, my car died today - sort of. I was driving down the highway and I saw that the coolant gauge was way up past the red lines and a red light came on to tell me my engine was overheating. I look in my rear view mirror and smoke is coming out of the back end of the car. My car was so hot it started burning oil so now my change oil light is on. After a lot of cursing and the purchasing of engine coolant, I discovered that my car had absolutely no coolant! It was fine a week ago, so there is definitely a leak there somewhere. It goes to the shop tomorrow and if they can't fix it, it goes to the dealership to be traded in. I told my mom I want to buy the Jeep in K-zoo. She's not pleased.

I had a doctor's appointment this morning to talk about my migraine's. This led to me being scheduled for an MRI tomorrow night. She's just doing this to make sure my tumor hasn't changed dramatically (and hoping that isn't the cause of these). I got a prescription for migraine meds as well. Can't wait to start those. Hmm... I can't wait to be stuffed into a little tube and get dye that tastes like pennies injected into me - it will be a blast! Not much else to say.

~LAter

These past few days have been a blur, to say the least. I got back into town Friday night; I stopped into B&N to see who was working and to get some hot chocolate. I spilled some on myself... nice.

Saturday night Eric wanted to go out to dinner. He told me we had to get dressed up and he wouldn't say where we were going. We ended up at Hobo's Tavern up in North Muskegon. Afterwards we drove around the lake to look at the lights and out to the State Park. We then continued on down to Pier Marquette. He wanted to get out and I said it was too windy and too cold. After he got me out of the car we talked for a few minutes. And then he got down on one knee and proposed. I am now engaged!!! My ring is absolutely gorgeous... and huge lol.

Christmas Eve he came over for brunch with my family and we told those who were there. We went to his grandma's party and we told his family there. Then we went to Deb's and told everyone who showed up there. Yesterday was long and eventful but I have never been so happy in my entire life.

This morning he came over and gave my parents their gifts and he stayed until the rest of my family came over. We told them and my cousin started crying. It was cute. He left to go back to his house and I went over there later. His grandparents saw and they congratulated us. We're going to a movie tonight with his family, as is Christmas tradition. I'm so happy. My ring is very sparkly and I can't wait to show it to my friends when they come back into town this Friday.

I got good gifts from my parents. Some really random stuff but nice all around. I got a new coat, the Da Vinci Code & Little Miss Sunshine DVDs, the Daughtry CD and some lotion and Pajamas from my grandma. Eric's parents got me more pajamas and his sister got me a new sweatshirt. This has been a great Christmas and I don't think anything will top it... not for a while anyway. Hope everyone else' holiday was great!

I was scheduled to work 1:30 - 9:00 today which isn't a terrible shift. We were super busy all day and I was supposed to be on register for a few hours to cover breaks then info for the rest of the night. Well, I got called up to cashier at about 8:00 because we got slammed and the line was wrapped through the bargain area even with nine registers going.

I get this lady who wants two gift cards. I tell her I have two choices behind the counter or she can pick from the kiyosk right behind her. She chooses to go over to the kiyosk. She's there for five minutes, literally, trying to pick out her gift card. The lady behind her in line keeps looking at me, and I notice she only has a Christmas card. I call her up to quickly ring her up and the lady picking out gift cards turns around, looks at me and says, "I'll be done in a minute, you can wait." Yeah, try telling that to the 50 people in line okay. I respond with, "She's only purchasing a card so I'll be with you when you get done choosing your gift cards." She turns around and continues to look. I'm in the middle of the transaction with card lady and the gift card lady turns around, looks around at the line and out of nowhere, walks up to the register and proceeds to throw her gift cards in my face! One hit my eye with it's corner and I rubbed it for a few seconds. I stared at her dumbfounded thinking, did this really happen? As she's walking away she turns around, looks at me rubbing my eye and says, "You deserved that."

I was beyond pissed. I was doing everything I could to stop myself from running after her and giving her the beating of a lifetime. I was shaking with rage. Everyone else saw it and Scott, the MOD, ran outside and yelled at her and told her never to come back to this store. The lady who was purchasing a card kept apologizing because apparently she thought it was her fault. Scott came back in and said I could leave early if I wanted or I could go back out to the floor and he'd ring in my place. I was in shock. I had no idea that woman was so pissed. I thought I'd seen it all but then bam! A cardboard corner goes into my eye. Ugh, I'm dreading my shift tomorrow. If I ever see her again there will be bloodshed... seriously.

Happy Holidays... psh.

Finals are done!!! I have no classes for 25 days. Today has been the first day all semester where I have no class and no work. I suppose I'll start Christmas shopping. I don't really know what to get anyone; my parents aren't giving me ideas and shopping for Eric's family may be more difficult than I thought. At least he's coming down to help with that part of it.

Not much else to say.

It's official... I get a new car during Christmas break. I got my Intrigue fixed, or so I thought, about a week ago (no, I didn't spend $2000). Some part in the engine was faulty and the problems it was having were the same problems I was having so the mechanic, and I, assumed it was the same part. Nope. Not by a long shot. The car ran good for six days and then bam! I think my parents may be helping me this time (with the money at least). I don't really want them to help because it makes me feel weak (lame I know), but I guess it would be weird to turn down money. Whatever, all I know is that I get, yet another, new car very soon!